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  • Get a job, a car, a good diet, and buy clothes and stuff. What you really want is independence and freedom. Once you have your own way things like transitioning are a bit easier. It’s not difficult to make friends as a trans person even if you lose some old friends. People also don’t care nearly as much when it starts to seem like you may live and you aren’t being reckless about it. Their opinions don’t matter anyways if you become independent.

    I haven’t been able to find hardly any good trans spaces anywhere, but I hang out online spaces that arent trans specific and I have a few irl friends.

    You can be a girl when you want. If you don’t feel safe coming out then just do it on your own time when you have privacy. It took a few years before I could come out because life is complicated.





  • Yes. You seem really cool. Idk why I put the DMT reference in there. I don’t do drugs or anything and never really have outside of weed.

    I know it’s what I want to do. Not just because I want to do it, but because I already am and always was a lady. Of course I am because why would anyone want to be the other gender if they weren’t already? Either way, to heck with gender! Humans have really not done well in history. I know much of that was sort of necessary in some ways, but human history is a history of exploitation and terrorism and brainwashing. Even if I die in my transition I will die happy and unafraid. Even if most people don’t understand me, they don’t understand me anyways but, at least now I understand myself. When I admired I was trans 4 years ago. I have found a deep happiness from it that hasn’t went away since then.

    I hope your dreams come true and the world is kind to you…


  • I have no idea what mine is, but Im a bit scared of boobs because I’m trying to pass as both. I’m a bit older and have a job and stuff, but I have been making moves to set me up for the future in case things go south.

    Honestly the longer you take them the more affect you will see in everyway, so if something about the transition bothers you, just know that in a year it will be better.

    My favorite and unexpected thing by far have been the changes to my mind. I never really considered it. It feels like a huge upgrade from the guy hormones. I feel so calm. I love it.

    To me hrt was like DMT a bit as in, you really don’t realize what you are getting into until the moment you do it and it hits you. I realized that where drugs target a neurotransmitter system, this hormone was affecting not only every part of my body but also the epigenetic expression of probably nearly every protein in my body.

    I kind of was a bit confused about the how trans am I really? thing… I felt like an imposter a bit. I knew it wasn’t a fetish because I have always felt like a girl on the inside but when I started it I realized that I really was a woman. On a deep biological level. Not just in my personality and my style preferences, and in the people I admired, and the way I acted without a filter, but like the deep alignment i felt the day I put estrogen in my body. I realized quickly that I wasn’t faking it. That I really was a woman because for the first time in my life I felt and acted normal. My brain just worked. My energy was stable, as my emotions were as well. I felt good. Complacent. Beautiful.

    Idk I’m glad you found yourself. I hope I can make friends in the future in my local area. I’m basically reliving entire phases of my life rn trying to just be myself and be normal like I never could do earlier. I’m glad there are millions of trans people now. People used to misunderstand us more but I think the future will be positive, and this time when the anti gay angle does I don’t think it will come back again.

    Another cool thought. People think we are weird but I actually think we are the normal ones. I think we are normal humans. I think humans are just fluid and andro typically and are like geysers of pure creativity and form and individual art. I think humans are supposed to not care about their gender and gender was never really meant to be anything other than different sexual organs and personality and stuff. Guys were always meant to be cute and girls were meant to just be less intense versions of cute guys. Idk tho.



  • Hmm, so I have thought about this for a while.

    There isn’t a ton of reason to think aliens are here.

    1. The main reason, is because of how things are. Things are rough and chaotic. Our leaders don’t seem to even see 5 years into the future. The world is very exploitative. It’s very arbitrary. It just doesn’t make much sense to think that some powerful mind is in control of it. It doesn’t seem planned. It seems like a bunch of hairless monkeys that live short lives developed technology a few people ago and are stumbling through everything.

    2.Aliens if they have the tech to visit earth. Are very likely to be post scarcity, and to have less competitive ideas. The values of our leaders do not align with the idea of aliens at all at least in all likelihood.

    3.Anyone who isn’t a child or short on intelligence probably realizes that everything on TV and the internet is pretty much a lie, intentional or not. Humans barely know anything about anything as it has always been, and the world is very much controlled by the upper class of wealthy people.

    There is maybe a shred of reason to think they may be here. One is that life on earth has continued for many billions of years, which is amazing when you really think about it. The conditions required for life to perpetuate are quite narrow.

    Another piece of evidence is virtually all of human history for many thousands of years revolves around extremely religious people and magic and all this stuff.

    Another thread of reason is simply the logic of the Fermi paradox, we know there is likely at least hundreds of thousands of intelligent life forms in the galaxy alone, probably more like millions or billions.

    So if they are here, they probably don’t want any contact with anyone or very few people. I don’t think politicians and rich people would be of interest to them. It’s also possible that they are so far beyond us in development that communication or acknowledgement of existence isn’t even something they care to establish. I mean what good does it do an ant to know humans exist? Mostly just makes them long for things they are not going to get from us. Even though we could give ants everything they want, we just don’t feel the desire for whatever reason. Maybe they judge us by our own level of empathy? They treat us like we treat lower animals?

    This still doesn’t line up well with the apparent chaos of reality, however, if they had a secret agenda, it becomes more possible, just also not all that likely. There isn’t anything on the planet that would ever be of value to them except maybe the fruits of human knowledge of culture.


  • When I started I definitely felt different emotionally. I was way more calm and relaxed and emotionally stable personally. However at about the 6 month mark, I do a lower dose btw and aim for a very typical female range, I really started to notice some of the deeper epigenetic changes starting to take place. A bit after 6 months my body hair slowed its growth significantly. My facial hair a bit, and boobs started to appear. I actually noticed a bit of extra butt first, something I liked. I was losing a little hope about my body hair and then It happened pretty quick.

    To me it seemed like the personality stuff came on fairly hard from the first day I took it. It took a bit before I started noticing changes in my shape.

    So if you are wondering what to expect, I would say,

    1st day - personality and emotional changes. Mine was very positive. Lower blood pressure maybe a bit of light headedness. Slight changes in my digestion and stomach ph.

    Month 1 - month 4 - skin changes, losing a bit of strength, energy levels becoming more stable then I was used to on guy hormones. Quite mind, comfortable and happy and warm. Body’s biosphere is adjusting to new PH. Slight feminization of face due to softer muscle tension and clearer and softer skin. Nipples are very sensitive and I lost most of my male sexual desire. Start to find guys a bit cuter then I normally do. Facial hair became thinner and lighter.

    Month 6 - noticing fat distribution changes. Stomach is smaller for same weight, by this point I had lost a fair bit of mass in my shoulder and neck area, started to get the first signs of actual breasts, have to be careful what shirt I wear if I’m guy moding. Stomach is smaller, thighs are getting a bit thicker, and pants fit tighter. I have a butt now! Not noticable but cute. Body hair has slowed significantly.

    Now I’m around month 7-8. I had a bit of a depressive period cuz I was freaking out a little about the boobs. I was hoping I’d be able to hide it a little longer. Still I’m very happy and got over it. Instill know I want to do it now no matter what comes of it. It’s how I want to live.

    I have enjoyed watching the changes because I have an interest in biology. I also like to tell others what they might can expect.




  • Well sure there isn’t a physical thing like class. It’s just an abstraction that we as humans came up with but I like the idea of owning (not indebted) a home, which to me signifies middle class. This is mainly because it gives you a lot of sovereignty. You can choose not to work continually, if the market doesn’t pay a fair rate. You expenses are relatively low and controllable, since you don’t have taxable income and you can survive, even retire in this ideal society.

    These days that’s very difficult with inflated asset prices, fiat currency, property taxation of the common people and things like that.

    Yes my definition isn’t anymore or less true then anyone else’s because class isn’t something that exists, but personally this is how I see it. I only think in terms of working class when it comes to labor law versus business and stuff. It doesn’t have much use to me outside of thinking about workers rights. Most more left leaning people that I’m aware of these days don’t particularly care about workers and stuff much these days. They care more about things like welfare or equality which to me isn’t really a working class issue so much as a low class issue. I’m not anti welfare by any means. I just don’t think I have every heard like an American Democrats professional or not, advocate for giving workers time off, or protecting their wages from excessive taxation or forced profit sharing or anything like that.

    America isn’t a right wing or left wing system. Democrats are mostly right wing and mostly liberals, they are also hard capitalists. The Republicans are mostly alt right and borderline to full blown Nazi. Workers come nowhere in the equation of political parties or the average worker. Most democratic and Republican voters seem to be mostly interested in building a massive surveillance state, rent capitalism via high taxation on the poor and low taxation on the rich, controlling each other, controlling speech and ideas. This is what most Americans for the past few decades regardless of party has found important enough to vote in. If you want someone to care about the working class you will probably have to somehow get your average American to stop being obsessed with spying on everyone in their society first because that is way higher on your average voters priority list.


  • Probably because bittorrent didn’t have any way to rank users based on how much they seeded, and also the fact that it wasn’t configured properly out of the box with basically every program that I have viewed. By default, bit torrent destroys the CPU in your router with as many as 500 active connections.

    Another reason is that so much software is commercial, and these companies want to maintain control over the servers for tax reasons but also so they can end the products life very early and try to force users to buy new versions. Not every video game does this but many of the more corporate and publicly traded ones do this.