Update on my current life predicament: (There are also positives I find in my daily life, which give me the strength to keep going and fighting with all my will, but things are getting increasingly out of hand.)

Being forced to undertake an absurd amount of debt for a college degree. I am in a deadly game of begging with my school’s financial aid office for a certain scholarship that would save me tens of thousands of dollars, but because of clever accounting and zero empathy, the school has “appropriated” the funds the government sent me, and is refusing to budge.

Having to focus on my life being a job and a grind. The concept of a “dream job” that won’t pay for a barebones subsistence living is draconian and dystopian. I do not wish to work for a mega conglomerate as a mid level corporate manager; I would rather help Satan manage Hell.

My medication which costs 3 pounds in the UK, 2.50USD in China, is free in Cuba, and so on, has now been increased to $303.99 per 30 day supply because the company that produces it in the United States has finally cornered their final competitor and have assumed a de facto monopoly on a vital medication, with the blessing of the US government. Because of my insurance, the cost has been lowered graciously to 24 dollars, as opposed to when it was a 6 dollar co-pay before.

My utilities are exponentially increasing month after month despite me living practically without electricity, gas, and water. The corporations that control my utilizes keep raising rates for the simple reason that they can. Compared to a few years ago, my rates have gone up by approximately 200-350%.

My hobbies have become disproportionally expensive compared to my income. It’s not like I’m skydiving or scuba diving, but even the simple hobbies I partake in have become unaffordable. I can no longer relax or have fun in my spare time.

I am unable to relax or not feel constant stress and anxiety from an impending existential threat that is always looming over my head. The reasons which are brought about by the capitalist system of the country I live in.

Me and my partner are facing persecution, denied medical access, and threats to our lives because of my partner being trans, our sexualities, and our relationship being interracial. I might have to leave the “homeland” I’ve grown up in and known for all my life, and abandon ship if I do not wish to end up as a victim of an impending “Jewish Question” scenario. I have no love for the country or community in which I live, and I find it disgustingly backwards, fascistic, fanatically religious, and underdeveloped; but leaving is still a terrifying thought, and the life of an immigrant or refugee is an extremely difficult and commonly awful one.