former bed side nurse here on sick leave till the end of the month. I should start my new job away from patients with normal working hours on October 1st.

I feel drained, even though I eat and sleep well, the best I’ve slept in months, my circadian rhythm is that of a normal human being, I can cook, go shopping, I even play some hobbies now.

Nobody yells at me or makes passive aggressive or backhanded remarks for me to hear.

The 1st. of October is a week away and I don’t believe I’ll be a fully functioning human being by then, most probably I’ll ask for a 2 week sick leave extension.

what worked for you to go back to your normal self?

    • vestmoria@linux.communityOPEnglish
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      1 month ago

      Don’t give a fuck attitude going forward is a must.

      I’m gonna have to ask you to explain here:

      I stopped giving a fuck about my coworkers 2 weeks before calling in sick, like, fuck them and I hope they burn in hell. If I ever have to set foot at that god forsaken piece of shit ward I’m calling in sick again. Fuck em.

      I also don’t give a fuck about any of my former managers.

      I don’t want to to say I don’t give a flying fuck about my current hospital, because I’m staying with them on a different role until I find something better, which may or may not happen, but it’s a clock in clock out and I’m fucking done with you and fuck you asshole situation

      you suggest not giving a fuck even going forward? but I do need to give a fuck not to lose my new position until I have secured a newer one, right? I don’t even know if I’m going to hate the new position away from patients as much as the ward.

      you other 3 bullet points are great though

      • FreedomAdvocate@lemmy.net.auEnglish
        3·
        1 month ago

        I’m sorry but this attitude is greatly contributing to your burnout for sure. Carrying this much anger isn’t healthy, and it wears on you.

        I wouldn’t say you “don’t give a fuck about them”, because if you didn’t you wouldn’t hate them and despise them so much. You wouldn’t even have a second thought about them.

        You’ve got to address those feelings first.

        • vestmoria@linux.communityOPEnglish
          2·
          1 month ago

          I don’t know if this is PTSD, but the mere mention of their names and remembering them infuriates me.

          I know I should be better than this and leave the past behind me, but somehow I cannot.

          At least I’m eating and resting well

        • vestmoria@linux.communityOPEnglish
          31·
          1 month ago

          People won’t like you for it but you won’t care.

          actually, some unidentified coworkers complained I’m not friendly and the way I speak is demanding.

          My former supervisor seemed to care about this because she came to me with these accusations, repeatedly. I still don’t know if this something big enough to fire somebody.

          I don’t care, don’t give a fuck but apparently hr does…

        • vestmoria@linux.communityOPEnglish
          1·
          1 month ago

          you are right, but somehow I cannot stop ruminating about this. Just thinking about them and how I was treated infuriates me.