When Covid hit i was 17, i’m italian and we had it pretty rough. After the lockdown i was left with anxiety problems i never suffered before. The last year of high school was like a fever dream, we would do like 2 weeks of school in person and 2 online and the rules changed constantly. Social interactions as i knew them before, in school and outside, changed and became more difficult. The fact that you lose a lot of friends due to everyone going to different cities to study for university didnt help either, i was basically alone for the first time in my life.

To cut it short, with highs and lows, i feel sometimes like i’m not supposed to deal with grown-up problems. Like i missed part of my life. I mean, when you enter high school youre basically still a kid and the years where you kinda are more mature are the exact ones i spent dealing with covid and its consequences. Could be because the first high school years were under my expectations and i counted on the last ones to give my youth a turn, and that’s why i feel i got robbed but idk.

In general its like i arrived where i currently am (last years of uni, then who knows maybe i’ll have to start working) too much fast. Like i speeded all my way in some of the best years of my life. Maybe its not totally because of covid but still, it feels like i found myself at a point far too close to the end of my youth (i mean the moment you still study and are much more free than when you will be working) and looking back i struggle to see how i ended up here.

Just a thought i had for some time, curious to see if everyone feel the same.

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    1 month ago

    I can’t speak to your exact situation but I’ll tell you a secret, grown-ups don’t know how to deal with grown up problems. It’s mostly just fighting to survive and figuring out how to deal with the next most urgent problem.

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        Depends. There are good parts, there are horrible parts. The ratio is determined mostly by luck and some effort to improve yourself. Become a homeless alcoholic… Yeah it’s shit. Become a successful business person with a happy family? Not shit. Enjoy your source of income? Not shit. Need to cry every morning before forcing yourself to crawl into your office to be able to afford peanut butter and jelly sandwiches? Shit.