This is…honestly NOT what I thought I would be writing today, lol. But, tbh…it really surprised me.
Just now, I was having some fun solo. I use a basic magic wand, have been using it for about 2 years now (best purchase EVER istg 😂).
I was playing a game, Lilith’s Throne (highly recommend btw, I can provide the JAR files for anyone interested). It’s a NSFW text-based RPG with tons of options, and I mean, TONS of options. The pros are, I’m sitting at my computer, which means at least one hand is free to play with my breasts (which feels amazing) and also…idk, I just prefer text, ig? It leaves so much up to your imagination…I honestly prefer it to “normal” visual porn. Needless to say, I’ve been playing this game quite a bit 😆 (don’t sue me, I’m at home alone like every day, what am I supposed to do? 😭).
So umm…this has happened a couple of times before, specifically when playing this game, but…today was different. When I did finish, I just kinda…I guess convulsed is the appropriate word 😂. Not literal convulsions, but I just couldn’t…not shake, if that makes sense? I had very little control over it. I shook so freaking much and couldn’t even stop, omg, and this is very unusual for me, so I was pretty surprised.
Also…the feeling was different in a way…it was kind of like these electric “waves” everywhere, all over my body. In a weird way…it almost felt like the electricity was “driving” the involuntary shakes. If that makes any sense at all? Probably not.
And the breathing, omg the breathing. I’m usually pretty quiet, when it comes to solo. I won’t say I was vocal, not in the way I am with my bf (moaning), but my breathing got super quick, kinda loud too, honestly, and there was just nothing I could do…so I just enjoyed it 😆.
And also, I just felt like it lasted a while too. Now, the last thing I want to do when having fun is to set a stopwatch, but it definitely felt a lot longer this time…
What I’d also like to mention tho…that feeling of guilt and shame that happened after every single orgasm pre-HRT…that’s long gone, and I’m super happy about that. Nowadays, I just feel satisfied, you know? And after this specific one, I felt super satisfied but also really exhausted, lol.
This is…so freaking TMI. This whole post, really 😂
It’s just…I’m really happy. It may be too early for me, but things are definitely changing for the better. I love estrogen so freaking much 🩷
Thanks for reading! Umm…sorry? I guess? I just wanted to share. Oversharing is overcaring indeed 😆
Edit: I should have probably mentioned, 6mo 3w HRT today precisely (lol) and also 3 weeks of rectal prog (400mg) today, also precisely (how did I do this? 😂)
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And then she hit Post…describing this part of her life… 🤦♀️
Just ban me at this point, I’ll totally get it. I’m so sorry girls 😭but if we ban you, we wouldn’t get to read your juicy posts anymore 😭️ so that’s not an option.
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You’re being way too tolerant of my shenanigans 😭Tysm tho 🩷
There’s like no way in hell I’m stopping 😂
congrats on your first girlgasm! it really is a pretty mind-blowing experience :)
next step is learning how to chain together multiple in a row :3
It was quite something. Can’t wait for my next one, lol.
next step is learning how to chain together multiple in a row :3
Don’t tempt me, or I’ll spend my entire day pleasuring myself 😭. I swear, I’m capable of doing that…
I honestly…can’t even begin to imagine how good that would feel tho. I’ve had “multiple orgasms” before, but they were kinda like my pre-HRT ones. I guess I just forced another one. Strangely enough, the second one was stronger.
NSFW, TMI
And also there was a bit of clear fluid after the second one (ew)
It still took like 15 minutes after the first one tho, so it wasn’t really “chaining”.
Having multiple of these in short succession tho? Damn. I need that in my life 😆
reference to spoiler above, discussion of genitals
keep in mind that that you should expect some amount of fluid now, even just from being aroused without orgasm. feminizing HRT will make you “get wet” when you’re horny in pretty much the same way as cis girls do!
specifically, estrogen causes the bulbourethral glands (which are responsible for producing precum in guys) to start working like Bartholin’s glands (which are responsible for producing much of the vagina’s natural lubrication). in other words, your precum will become more acidic and there’ll be a lot more of it. i think there’s also some other glands inside or near the urethra itself which also start secreting larger volumes of… stuff, but i can’t remember what they’re called off the top of my head.
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Interesting…I can’t say I’ve noticed much more fluid than pre-HRT? Definitely not just from arousal alone. Maybe I’m not aroused enough 😆
I hope this doesn’t have implications about my SRS outcome tho 😭
I’ve heard some girls do get self-lubrication and honestly, that would be kinda cool, but it’s not something I need.Either way, very interesting information! Tysm 🩷
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i wouldn’t worry if it’s not there - it’ll take time to change, and even then there’s plenty of variation between people (not all girls get equally wet!) and the geometry of where it has to get through (the urethra is a small narrow tube and is a lot longer than you think) means that unless you’re very wet it won’t start leaking out unless it gets forced out mechanically (e.g. muscle contractions during orgasm or external pressure).
i was mainly addressing the “ew” part of your comment and wanted to point out that it’s probably not jizz - at this point your sperm production is probably be close to zero, and the seminal vesicles and prostate should be contributing significantly less fluid during “male”-style ejaculation (if that happens at all!).
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Yeah, that makes sense. I guess there would be lots of variation lol. I might still get there tho
Thanks for the info! Definitely not jizz, my body doesn’t produce that anymore and that’s a GOOD thing! Zero cleanup for me, only fun. Bless HRT 🩷
Thank youuu 💜
Slay haha, are you on prog?
I haven’t gotten it yet but the ‘guilt’ and ‘shame’ def also disappeared for me (alongside with libido)!
Yes, prog is a must-have!
I haven’t gotten it yet but the ‘guilt’ and ‘shame’ def also disappeared for me (alongside with libido)!
I’m so sorry to hear that 😭
How long are you on HRT? It’ll definitely come back, but the in-between phase sucks. Don’t worry girlie, just give it some time 🩷Oh about 1.5 years! I actually like the libido and guilt and shame disappearance, mainly because prior I’d feel like I had to turn my head and look everytime I saw a hot mess. Didn’t like that cus it didn’t feel I was in charge of my body.
I’m actually gonna get prog very soon, so that I’m def looking forward to. Mainly to grow boobs, but I might also be curious for the sensual aspects…
Oh that’s…quite some time already. Definitely do try prog! I can only recommend it…
I’m sorry about the libido tho…I know it suits some people, to have no libido, but…I mean it’s nice, I guess?
I’ve also heard of people’s libidos returning years later…so not all is lost!I’m so sorry for freaking out about assuming your gender 😭
I’m actually supposed to be doing something right now, but I’m posting on Lemmy instead, so I’m a bit anxious and jumpy. Sorry!Nah dw, I’m also a gal!
But it’s def good to not assume of people what they are or want haha
Yeah, that was…really dumb of me, actually
Your transmasc memes are kinda fire tho! ♥️
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I had the same kind of thing last night after my wife went on a second date with a guy from Hinge and kissed him, and we were talking about all the possibilities of what they might do next time. We were both super turned on from the conversation, and I used my wand because she’s on her period at the moment.
It was like waves crashing around in my body and occasionally converging back together to almost cause another orgasm?? Felt like I came between 3 and 15 times, It was craaazy and I’m not even on prog yet lol
Damn, sounds like you two are having fun 😆
So happy you have such a nice relationship ❤️It was like waves crashing around in my body and occasionally converging back together to almost cause another orgasm??
Yeah, actually! I felt something like that. I almost thought I was gonna finish again, lol.
Honestly, not complaining in the slightest 😄
Am i the only one to reliably have those orgasms pre HRT? I just assumed everyone had them like that.
You’re not the only one. Orgasms vary a lot from person to person. They can also vary between different occurrences, as there are a lot of mind and body factors that determine your subjective experience.
Really?? Damn girl, you’re lucky. Happy for you 🩷
Wait why does that game sounds familiar… I’ll have to check out later ₍^. .^₎⟆
Ah the shaking ! I love it! It happened a few times for me. Even pre hrt but different. Never like today.
(There is day I have been so horny I was literally shaking and out of breath just with anticipation. Too bad my gf didn’t do anything in that state but I get it, I was a bit in a weird state not usual but lucid. Whenever consent is not 100% sure, don’t!)
I don’t even know if that much prog is recommended? But oral progesterone effects is coming back for me now when I need now. Feeling groggy a bit after taking 200mg but at least it calms if I need during an evening.
I don’t care about oversharing honestly and probably am because you do 😄
Wait why does that game sounds familiar… I’ll have to check out later ₍^. .^₎⟆
The source code is available and it’s not too hard to compile (Java program), but if you’d like, I can send you an already-built JAR file 😄
Of course, only if you trust me, that isAh the shaking ! I love it!
The shaking honestly surprised me in the best of ways. It was just…involuntary, but absolutely pleasurable. Holy shit, I love E 🩷
Whenever consent is not 100% sure, don’t!
Can’t agree with that statement enough, omg
I don’t even know if that much prog is recommended?
Probably not tbh. My prog levels are about 175ng/ml, which is like…third trimester level? But I feel amazing and that’s all that matters to me.
But oral progesterone effects is coming back for me now when I need now. Feeling groggy a bit after taking 200mg but at least it calms if I need during an evening.
Oral prog definitely does that…but you don’t get much prog in your blood that way. I’d definitely try the other way, if I were you! Just saying, the way to get proper prog levels is by boofing it 😆
I don’t care about oversharing honestly and probably am because you do 😄
Honestly? I’m really glad 🩷
Some people treat oversharing like a terrible thing but…I guess I just don’t see the issue. But then again, I’m weird 😂
