I’m really bad at sticking to things. Every time I try to do something slow and good for me, I do it for a month or two tops and I just revert back into the habits that are bad for me.
For example, I did weightlifting for 2-3 months and I had a lot of fun doing it but I just slowly lost interest and stopped. I did daily journaling and meditation and it gave me a lot of peace and clarity but it only took one mental breakdown for me to quit. I read books daily for a month but I eventually got sucked back into consuming mostly digital media.
I know that all of the former activities were good for me and I genuinely enjoyed doing all of them but I just eventually get sucked back into my old bad habits. How do you break away from that?
For some additional information: I get therapy every 2 weeks and I’m not on any medication. Clinically diagnosed with depression and anxiety
While some of it might be an attention deficit or mood disorder (or whatevs), there is nothing wrong with getting interested in something and then simply losing interest.
I am a musician, I love making music for my own personal enjoyment and then deleting the project to start something new.
This isn’t something I’ve done every day since I got interested, I started, stopped, did other music related things, stopped again, and so on.
The things I did get interested in but stopped and never got back to were mostly the things I did every day. They ended up feeling like work, nothing wrong with that but if work was fun we’d call it fun and not work.
IMO, going to the gym can be fun but that’s not my idea of a leisure activity and I’m a man of leisure. cough lazy cough
If I had the desire to go to the gym for something other than vanity I’d probably just bite the bullet though.