I feel the need to say beforehand, I’m slightly drunk right now, and my inhibitions are lowered by this, but this has been bothering me lately.

I don’t know of I need some kind of help. I’ve kind of become enamored with a “slutty, bimbo” look for myself, wearing really short booty shorts and really short crop tops, and wanting to adopt a “slutty” lifestyle. I’ve always liked the idea of being indiscriminate of my partners. I want to say, though, I can’t right now, since she left.

Depressing thoughts aside, should I talk to my therapist about this? I don’t want to end up using sex to cope with my mental deficiencies, but, my mind is equating what I’ve always wanted in a partner is what I’ve really wanted for myself.

I’m ashamed of being slut-shamed, or my kids seeing me with multiple sexual partners. I know it is too early to think about sex, but I’m really self conscious about my innate desire to dress and be slutty. I’m sorry if I’m oversharing, but I don’t know what to do with this part of myself.

  • JessieRock@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    Definitely talk with your therapist about these feelings.

    I think we all go through a “slutty” stage in dress or actions after spending so much time trying to repress and hide it our true selves. It’s kinda like making up for missed opportunities and Finding ourselves.

    • EsheLynn@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOP
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      It’s just, if you made a Venn Diagram of a year ago me objectively describing physical attributes I found hot in a woman, and my transition goals, I think it would just be a circle. I want long blonde hair, sky blue nails, not afraid to show off her body. I keep calling it sluttiness, but, it’s probably just confidence. Confidence is sexy after all. Confidence in myself and my body, to think I’m hot shit. Not in a condescending way, mind you. I’ve been talked down to enough to know how it feels.