12·
11 days agoMarx is really starting to kill me with his large paragraphs in volume 3.
Kolibri [she/her]
Death to America
- 0 Posts
- 16 Comments
Joined 10 months ago
Cake day: November 28th, 2023
You are not logged in. If you use a Fediverse account that is able to follow users, you can follow this user.
56·1 month agoIt’s very misleading to say democrats are trying to push for a ceasefire, when democrats are all on board for continuing supporting Israel and their genocide against Palestine. And why wouldn’t they when Israel is pretty much a place that allows the United States to continue to have a foothold in West Asia? To add, Biden who is a democrat, has no problem with what Israel has been doing.
deleted by creator
4·4 months agodeleted by creator
I was outside and I saw this monarch butterfly just flying about, doing it’s dance. It was really pretty.
10·7 months agoI just heard/learned a little about sonoluminescence, and now that word just stuck in my head
venting
cw: grief and depression
I woke up really early because my dad coughing woke me up. I don’t understand how he can say he’s fine. I just wish he would get it looked at it. But no. Doesn’t matter how many people try encouraging him to go see someone. Just like his drinking. Would be cool if I could just drag a doctor somewhere and bring said doctor here.
but like besides that, I manage to fall back asleep despite being really hungry. and then I had dreams of my mom. and I hate how vivid they were. It felt like she was alive, and when I woke up again, I was very like, confused. before like waking up more and realizing that like she gone. and just quickly reprocessing that all.
and this reminded me of like. why does my dad just not seem to care that like she dead? I know like they broke up like almost a decade ago because of his drinking. but like still. he knew her for at least some decades before that. and just nothing? nothing?? he didn’t even want to go to her funeral, he only went because of me. of course doesn’t help that like. one my siblings s.o threaten to beat my dad up and to stay away from said sibling over the phone.
but just still. like. my sibling wasn’t always around my mom. and when my mom was like dying. she said she was okay with seeing him. and it sounded like my mom wanted to see him. but like. did my dad ever show up to talk to her or to see her? no. not even in the hospital or when she was in hospice.
trying to give him the benefit of the doubt that maybe he just keeping it all to himself or something… but a part of me really doubts that. I sometimes really hate being alive, I hate being here. just endless misery. well that not always true, there are some good moments in between it all. but still. sometimes it would just be nice to just, not be here.
thanks, and I hope that it’s going well for you to!
deleted by creator
yea bit by bit! just need to stick with it
I think I’m gonna try relearning spanish again, even if like, I’m not too focused on it. I dunno, it just would be nice to speak to my grandma not in english. but it couldn’t hurt just to learn a few stuff each week. even if I don’t really want to because either im too depressed or dealing with a bunch of other stuff.
I had a really weird dream of being at like an antarctic or a wintery research station, and the only way research could be done was interacting with other people in the community around like that research station
I do not want to procrastinate reading Das Kapital ever again. I just like spent the last 4 hours reading and finishing chapter one. and I am very sleepy, and I better not dream of linen and coats. so many mentions of linen and coats
the prison segment was so good! especially the prison speech
procrastinating reading das kapital for the book club on here, I have 21 pages to catch up on now
it nice having days where I can just be quiet and just vibe to others, esp. because like some days when it comes to talking I don’t know what to talk about or say at all.
the moon really pretty tonight
deleted by creator