But i am panicked about everything, about my brain fog, my incapability of communicating or even wanting to comunicate with people, inability to cope with the world materially and morally crumbling down.
And mostly, panicked about my inability to not feel numb constantly about my panic
I don’t know if i have depression, but i starter to get curious about gender dysphoria and many things seem to resonate. Depersonalization and derealization mostly…i know there are comorbidities but it feels like a rouge to investigate
I havent gotten the chance to start efexor yet. Tomorrow ill have it tho.
Also your feedback on weed was helpful, when i start stimulants again i will do my best not to smoke
Thank you
We should stoke anger. Hope made us blind and we sleepwalked into warming.
It’s too late for justice. Now only revenge remains
I have a diagnosis but meds didn’t work, possibly because i live a pretty much sheltered life and was never forced into work, i did some jobs but i never lasted more than a year. The last 3 years i spent smoking weed and postponing my waking up. Now i’m trying psychotherapy again and i’ve been prescribed efexor.
But i feel more hopeless and spent than ever. I can’t feel interest nor curiosity about anything. Social interactions are pain, and what’s worse is that even with my closest friends it is now like that. I just feel like I’m not interested or capable of conversing with them, cause I feel no interest in any thing anymore…
Pasta Italianman
Or Italia Pastaman
Maybe Peppino Mafiera
They’re gonna Streisand him into office lol
can’t even imagine what “i don’t know how to write women” is like
like…just write a person…that is a woman…
there are contextual superstructures that i really struggle to perceive but that people shape all of their perspective on without realizing it.
I wish there was a way to mass dispel this curse
feeling like my soul is mad at me for not picking up molotovs
It’s addiction. It can only exist when we give it something to echo. It is a mirror, enamoured with those that reflect on it.
It fears nonexistence, in a way
unemployed = more free time to organize!
yes, create a legion of angry, unemployed/unemployable people, that will go well for the capitalist system
Tutto a maiali
What i meant by owing our existence to it is that the natural world is everything, literally, it doesn’t matter if we modify it, for we are natural too, and so is our behavior. Maybe owe is the wrong word, it’s not my intention to force some religious-adjacent message to this. Technology is nature elaborated by consciousness, which is natural too, unless you assume an outside influence. That connection is why I think it can ultimately be unhealthy to feel this way, it’s a negativity that one way or the other can be reflected in the end product.
Let me be clear, I don’t think your viewpoint is invalid, nor wrong. I am no one to tell you what to do or think. I am just sharing how I perceive it, and why.
I don’t think we are being defiant of nature, for it is our nature to be defiant. It’s a contradiction, a superposition of intention, that I think is mirrored in many contradictions of the fundamental rules of the Cosmos. Evolution is made from mutation, and memetic mutation is the latest and fastest expression of Life, or rather, Existence. Now I am putting some “religious” undertones. It’s my way to reach spirituality through scientific notions. I am not an academic and I don’t pretend I can get an objective view, just a spiritually healthy one (spirit = mind = soul, to me)
Unwillingness to compromise with the forces of nature is not what led to civilization. Humans went a long way before they could have the means to ignore certain limitations the world imposed on them. And now the earth under those means is crumbling, and the assumption that technology is separate or “better” than nature is falling apart.
I did not wish to assume you acted like those responsible for these failings, but I do want to caution you against that ontological perspective. I think there’s value in it, and risk too, as there is in mine.
I agree in a sense that bodies are prisons. Probabilistic cages that help us manifest from the singularity. All matter composing you and me existed way before it was you and me, but that matter could not think or feel or argue or suffer or smile before they coalesced in their current form.
That is why we are the Cosmos knowing itself. Not because it “wants” to but because we are it and are experiencing it. I am glad you have this disposition towards discussion and your own viewpoints, I appreciate that way of thinking and I try to do the same
I have not read the other replies, but consider that you might be biased by your viewpoint to see them as less coherent than they are, as viewpoints do. We humans struggle to see how much of our thought is lost in translation when it’s passed into word.
All of that said, in the grand scheme of things it’s a false dichotomy to distinguish between “natural” and “unnatural”, but I appreciate the Mechanicus angle nonetheless, though I do not share it anymore.
p.s. I cannot imagine having an LSD trip in a Starbucks and NOT have a panic attack, the only trip where i haven’t felt any anxiety was the first one, with close friends in the middle of a grove in front of a small lake. The other better ones where at home, though, but I do live in a very green place
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if you follow MAD theory you could consider Nukes a defensive weapon…
i bet it’s nukes
We should circulate a copypasta that’s like “nature’s fighting back!” what with the orcas and the bees and the submarines so that the billionaires will fear going out even more
Indeed
Molto interessante, strano che nessuno ci abbia mai pensato prima in effetti