Hi! Thank you so much for your answer! I’m using koreader now for my reading and getting books online, a Kobo looks nice because you can apparently install Koreader on it as well, and synchthing too.
The mp3 is also a good idea, but I realized I will have to use a computer and an internet connection somehow at some point, whether it’s for managing my ebooks, downloading music or other stuff… And while it can be wonderful to not having to work at a PC all day, I think I will need at least a laptop that I can bring to a library and help me manage some stuff every now and then, even if I have no internet/smartphone at home… Well I hope it can be a cheap b/w e ink laptop one day!!
I think part of me just have to learn that some emotions I feel are so strong that sometimes having control on my media use is hard unless I address my underlining condition. I can definitely do better tho!
For example I can change my workplace so I don’t have to be on a computer all day alone, working on social medias too pheraps, and I can ditch my smartphone and get a Garmin for gps, mp3 and eBook reader… Even tho my smartphone is not really being as much of a problem anymore since it is really really minimal already thanks to e ink and plucky andoff!
One thing I notice is that when I feel worse I somehow try to rationalize I can “unlock” some restrictions because I might have become able to handle it, eg. I can install Instagram or a browser to look for events, but I end up in bad media use every time after that!
I think that’s mostly because I really need some relief from the constant stress I experience / fear of intimacy which brings me to porn/social medias (from PTSD), and partly because these softwares contain the bads alongside the goods.
Anyway the e ink world is being more and more amazing the more the time passes, and there are people who do care and build better / less or non addictive software too! I think the goal shouldn’t be perfection, but rather the best balance between convenience and unwanted effects…
I would be much less driven to use technology at all if I did not have internet at home or didn’t have to work alone at a computer, but I could lose too much if I didn’t own a computer I could bring to a library once or twice a week to download ebooks / music / watch for events to go to with my friends or download my guitar tabs!
I think I’m probably slowly transitioning to “the ghost” but more as a matter of digital minimalism than for privacy lmao