Cried my eyes out at the vet’s … I’ve lost my best friend. Two cancers in his mouth left no choice but letting him go. I still feel the warmth of his head and his last breath under my hand. I’m hurt to the bone but glad his pain is over.

  • ButWhatDoesItAllMean@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
    46·
    16 天前

    I’m so sorry to hear, it’s a very difficult thing to go through 🙁 You did the right thing, he won’t have to endure any more pain. You were his whole life and he loved you for it. I like to believe that when our time comes we’ll be reunited with our beloved pets on the other side, tails wagging with excitement as they run to greet us.

    • redlemace@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      17·
      16 天前

      tails wagging with excitement as they run to greet us

      Knowing it won’t be there today is what makes coming home real hard (but yeah…some day…)

      • HCSOThrowaway@lemmy.worldEnglish
        10·
        16 天前

        The first 24 hours were the hardest for me for exactly that kind of thing.

        Years later it doesn’t hurt less, but it gets easier to deal with.

        Just try to remind yourself that he’d want you to be happy, so try to be happy for him.

        • redlemace@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
          4·
          16 天前

          try to be happy for him

          That’s what’s holding me together. I know he was in pain, I’m happy I could take it over.

    • 100_kg_90_de_belinEnglish
      12·
      15 天前

      I’m an atheist, but being able to meet my dog again is the only way I’d be fine with an afterlife.

    • redlemace@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      16·
      16 天前

      Thnx. We know for a fact his first year hasn’t been one of joy and warmth (he’s a resq). I sure hope the 9 we gave him made him forget it.

      • Rhaedas@fedia.io
        10·
        16 天前

        Rescues are tough because you don’t know the full trauma they might have been through. But you rescued them, it’s in the name. They recognize that. I could tell stories about a few of ours, but this isn’t the place. Just to say that while the anxiety and fear doesn’t fully disappear, it becomes more in the background covered by the love you give, and they are better for it.

  • Seleni@lemmy.worldEnglish
    18·
    16 天前

    It came to me that every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them, and every new dog who comes into my life gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough, all the components of my heart will be dog, and I will become as generous and loving as they are.

  • MrFappy@lemmy.worldEnglish
    16·
    16 天前

    I’m sorry to hear that. I had the same thing happen on Sunday with my 10 y.o. pooch. You just gotta keep their memory alive.

  • Jax@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
    15·
    16 天前

    Holding your friend while they die is one of the kindest things you can do. I’ve been there, and it still hurts - but I don’t regret it one bit. I’m sorry for your loss.

    • redlemace@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      3·
      16 天前

      Holding your friend while they die

      There is no other way! They have been there for me, i’ll be there with them.

      • BreadOven@lemmy.worldEnglish
        1·
        15 天前

        I was only able to with one of my guinea pigs. Differences in method I guess (different vets due to availability or something, can’t remember), but it was so much better being able to hold her as she faded.

  • scops@reddthat.comEnglish
    6·
    16 天前

    I’m sorry for your loss. It’s unfair that we have to say goodbye to them, but it never stops being worth the love they bring to our lives.

    • redlemace@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      3·
      16 天前

      I think “It’s better to have loved and lost than never have loved at all” is even more true with dog

  • jpreston2005@lemmy.worldEnglish
    6·
    15 天前

    Good for you for being there and comforting your dog while they passed. A lot of people don’t, and it breaks my heart.

    • redlemace@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      5·
      15 天前

      I dropped everything on the spot and speeded there … nothing could keep me from being there

      • jpreston2005@lemmy.worldEnglish
        2·
        15 天前

        When my kitty passed, I held her as they gave the injection. I cried so much, they didn’t even charge me. Said that so many people don’t, that it was refreshing to see someone who did. Really stuck with me, how can people be so heartless?

        Anyway, I’m sorry for your loss, man. Shit sucks real bad. I still see me old dogs in my dreams sometimes, and I like to think that’s just them checking on me from the great beyond. 💔

        • redlemace@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
          3·
          15 天前

          When the say men don’t cry, they obvious never have met a guy at the vet that had to part from his pal. I cry so hard, everyone in the building does not know how or where to look.

          they didn’t even charge me

          I’m just happy they did not charge me for the installation of a draining pump in their office ;)

    • redlemace@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      1·
      16 天前

      We where so close, A few years ago i lost something and walked back a bit along the road. When I passed the neighbors she ran to house and shouted through the open window “Honey! Come look, he goes without his dog!”

  • BreadOven@lemmy.worldEnglish
    5·
    15 天前

    You loved him. He loved you. You were there for him until the end, I doubt he would want it any other way. So sorry for your loss. I already rue the day it will happen to our girl.

  • antianarchist@sopuli.xyzEnglish
    5·
    16 天前

    I am very sorry to hear that.

    Grief is a process that makes you feel unwell. No one likes it and everybody wants it to be over ASAP. The thing is, our brain needs that process. You did not just lost a very good friend, you lost a part of yourself. This hurts, and those wounds need to heal first.

    I have absolutely no doubt that you were the best for your dog, even when he was doing things he was not supposed to do and you had to correct him. You were his world, he was happy all his life.

    Take your time to process. You will be alright!