Binge Eating, Cigarettes, Drinking, smoking pot… dropped all that tho when i got hooked on a cocktail of Tramadol, Hydromorphon, Lorazepam and Fentanyl through my doctors because of chronic pain. started abusing that stuff and had a few close calls. I tried quitting cold turkey but wasn’t strong enough.
Forged a pact with my doctor, deposited my pain meds at his place and saw him 3 times per week for my next dose for over a year, but i couldn’t stop abusing my meds.
Finally last year with the help of my therapist and a program for addicts transited over to suboxone.
i’m still addicted, but it’s not self destructive anymore. When i’m feeling ready, i will slowly reduce my substitution over months, but even if i’m never ready for it, at least i do not damage my personal relations and my health anymore, i’ts just a pill in the morning to keep the cravings away.
The important part was putting my addiction on the table. Addiction thrives on feelings of shame, and i went through a lot just to hide my vice from my partner. Putting it into the open enabled me to get help - first in therapy, then with my doctor, and then with my partner.
Tl;dr: Get Therapy, start talking about your addiction to get rid of the shame, many addictions can be replaced with less damaging / health-neutral options if you’re not ready to leave your crutches behind yet.
I never did, i replaced them often tho.
Binge Eating, Cigarettes, Drinking, smoking pot… dropped all that tho when i got hooked on a cocktail of Tramadol, Hydromorphon, Lorazepam and Fentanyl through my doctors because of chronic pain. started abusing that stuff and had a few close calls. I tried quitting cold turkey but wasn’t strong enough.
Forged a pact with my doctor, deposited my pain meds at his place and saw him 3 times per week for my next dose for over a year, but i couldn’t stop abusing my meds.
Finally last year with the help of my therapist and a program for addicts transited over to suboxone.
i’m still addicted, but it’s not self destructive anymore. When i’m feeling ready, i will slowly reduce my substitution over months, but even if i’m never ready for it, at least i do not damage my personal relations and my health anymore, i’ts just a pill in the morning to keep the cravings away.
The important part was putting my addiction on the table. Addiction thrives on feelings of shame, and i went through a lot just to hide my vice from my partner. Putting it into the open enabled me to get help - first in therapy, then with my doctor, and then with my partner.
Tl;dr: Get Therapy, start talking about your addiction to get rid of the shame, many addictions can be replaced with less damaging / health-neutral options if you’re not ready to leave your crutches behind yet.